遠い水曜日

Uh oh uh oh, yeah... Let me be with you~

I just did not know why i called this “Post” as “Distant”. I just feel like doing it, as i wrote this post, i have been doing a lot of thinking lately. It’s about the decision about moving from Quezon, to here, Batangas. I know, how i hate to move in a place that i will be “Lost” again, but it seems like i do not have any other choices, i feel like i have lost every reason why i must stay at Quezon. It’s not that i grew to hate the place, but it’s because of people that made me feel that they are making distances away from me…

I know, i did my best to get along with several people, if you ask me if do i still want to be friends with them, i would quickly say “Yes”. It’s up to them, and i cannot say that it depends on my mood, and any bitching reasons like that, a lot of things have been around my mind lately. and yet, how i wish that i can do things my way, the way i want it, the way i need it…

Yesterday, i have been so mad about someone who promised me to do a favor for me. The three super hateful thing that someone could make for me is, it’s not to hurt me physically, hurting me emotionally is 2nd, but the best thing that you can do to make me build distance with you is… Disrespecting me, and the 3rd one is, making me hope for nothing. Sure, i was just asking a favor here, but i did not asking a favor for free, in fact… I’m willing to pay for it, and also. It’s natural for me to hope since you promised, and you kept your word on it.

For me, every person’s word represents their humanity, so if you tell me something like “Hey Lyle, i will be the one who will protect you from those idiots!”. Expect me that i will be expecting a lot on you. Cause i am the type of person that’s Magkamatayan na, basta makatupad lang ako sa usapan (i.e. No matter what, i will fulfill what i have promised). I know, as you read my post, you might be thinking… “It’s your fault for expecting too much!”, but before you can think it that way… Let me have your thought back at you, aren’t you gonna expect for someone who left you his/her word as well? If you’re answer is “No” you’re not being truthful to yourself! Sorry, but that’s how i see things.

I have arrived here in Batangas this morning, with only 4 Hours of sleep, cause we have to wash our clothes, and wake up early cause Mom has to go to Manila for the Bi-monthly Shemalife Remittance, so we have to be here early. We first went to my Big Brother’s Place (literally, it’s his In-law’s place… He’s living there with my Sister-in Law and my Nephew). I didn’t get the chance to talk to him, i lost pace of my mind, that’s me when i’m into my Low-Blood Pressure Evil Hero Mode!. Stunned, Unfriendly, Eaasily Agitated, and Weak.

When we arrived here at the Office, i quickly opened my Laptop for my Home-based Duty for CSVAS, i just logged in for Five Hours, since that i have my ultra-tight budget! I only have 200 Pesos when i got here, and now, i only got like 30 Pesos, i don’t know what will become of me for tomorrow, but in other cases, i might run to my Big Brother’s Placce to use Wi-Fi there, so i cn still work for CSVAS as a Home-Based Virtual Assistant. Ohh~! Bongga! di ba!? (i.e Extravagant, isn’t it!?)

Just finished 200 Pounds Beauty, it was really a great film. I was thinking about watching Eternal Summer, it’s a 2006 Taiwan Indie Film about two Childhood Best Friends, Shane and Jonathan, who secretly falls in-love with each other since they were kids. And there was Carrie, a girl who falls in love with Jonathan, but acted as the “middle person” between Jonathan and Shane. It’s a Boy’s Love Movie, but it’s not rude to watch. It’s actually feels like you’re just watching a teenage oriented series like Gimik and the Like.

I have a copy of the Movie, it’s in .AVI File, if anyone want’s a copy, just tell me, via comment, or PM me in my Facebook, and i’ll be glad to give you a copy. It’s English Subbed, so no worries.

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